Have you ever had a technology problem that just put you over the edge? I have.
Recently, my computer went on the blink. It decided to check out. Quit working. And I have to admit it drove me bonkers. When this mechanical breakdown happened it about caused me to have a mental breakdown. All kidding aside, I learned something about myself. I use my computer a lot to stay connected to my favorite people and activities. When I could not connect I felt in the dark.
When the computer first started to have a breakdown, I tried to fix it myself. I turned it on and then off a half dozen times if not more. I was thinking I would get a different result each time. Hmmm. I know, this is the definition of insanity. Doing the same thing and expecting a different result. Then I took the battery out and unplugged it…also…at least a half dozen times or more. Hmmmm. More insanity. My frustration level began to blast off and so did my heart rate. I paced the floor. Made phone calls to tech repair people and then surrendered. Is this radical acceptance?
When I was confronted with taking my computer in for repairs and I would be separated from it I suffered from separation anxiety. I knew I was in a place of having to use my acceptance skills to deal with reality. My lesson: I have a renewed appreciation for the psychological defense of denial. I even tried the serenity prayer.
The other lesson: Gratitude. I had a chance to slow down, read a book and call some friends. One day I even sat at the morning table with a warm cup of hot peppermint tea and studied the beauty of the Christmas Cactus in full bloom. It is beautiful! I practiced being fully present. Mindfulness.
Also, gratitude I have my computer back.
Have a wonderful day!